Just got done watching that documentary THIN…

Now im depressed as ever. When it came to the aftermath of all the patients after they had been relesed every single one of them still struggled with their eating disorders. I sat there literally crossing my fingers that it showed them happy and healthy and that they had fully recovered but no…. I feel like theres no way out now. Like ill be stuck in this state of mind for ever. Why? why did this fucking have to happen to me.. I feel so lost right now idk what to even do anymore….